Hi yup so I don't know why I'm here but hi. 

Since no one is into blogger now, shall blog and rant then! I guessed one main reason I'm here is because I couldn't find Someone to talk to. I mean everyone is busy preparing for prelims and there's me. Slacking for the whole day and literally doing nothing. People once said that those people that got hardworking in their lower sec life and slacking away their upper sec life are dumb people. Guessed I'm one of them. Couldn't catch up in class because I'm slower than the others and are those kind that need to work ten times more to achieve the same grade as them. Yup life is unfair, like always. 

Okay so alot of things have been happening recently. Looking at my previous post, hmmm hahhaha why am I so funny. Ok anyway it's weird. I don't get jealous or having shitty feelings when he told me about it. Yup, not even a little pissed or whatever. I don't know why. Ok next. 

It's been close to two weeks since I DPA-ed and I haven't receive any single email or call. And it's so frustrating when my phone vibrates and I thought it was from np but it wasn't. I don't know where else should I go if even CMC and Chinese studies don't accept me. I'm not doing the best in Chinese, but at least I have the passion for it. Rather than accounting and business course that 90% of my friends are aiming for. Friends kept asking me to be patient and wait for it, I want to. But I can't. Seeing all my friends going for interview already, and me? Yup still waiting. STILL. 

Moving on. Exams. One of the biggest problems I'm facing right now. I hate how exams decides our future. So, what? Flunked this exams and you lose to others already? At this kind of age? With this kind of stress? Always trying my best to make my parents proud. But nope, not even once did I put in all my effort. Study for five minutes and rest for one hour. I'm like that, procrastinating always. And then regret when the results come out. There's once where I felt like dropping Amaths. And guess what? People start judging that I did well and still drop? Attention seeker they think? Wow I cannot handle the stress like how you all did. My three hour of studying is equivalent to all of your one hour of studying. Really. And no one understands you know. Only one did. The one that I don't expect to,  understand. 

Done ranting. Sleep now and homework tomorrow. Wasted one weekend not studying again. How unproductive, janelle.